Relationshps

Talking about relationships,

FRIENDSHIP
Mine is pretty messed up,
i was thinking,
maybe some of my friends hates me,
for example last year,
since a friend of mine says my actions is causing hatred to him and others,
he never talked to me anymore.
I was shocked,
cos he was such a nice person a few years back,
but he was in other groups,
so i didn't bother.
Until now,
i dunno if my personality fits some people,
maybe i'm not quite humorous,
or not very stylish,
or even into gossip....
That's just what most people find in a person....
But i would like people to accept me who i am,
I can't change my personality to suit other people.
Even if i wanted to,
I won't be me anymore, right?

LOVE
Ya about crushes,
like when i read it from books,
they always seem to say that revealing your feelings to that person is EASY,
but damn it's really HARD.

Maybe having a crush on someone isn't such a bad thing...
1) You don't have to put a lot of effort maintaining that relationship.
2) You can still feel happy when thinking about or seeing her.
3) No beginning, no break ups, no sad ending.

But on the bad side,
1) You might have a strong sense of jelousy when you see him/her with someone else.
2) Always thinking about him/her, can't concentrate properly on stuff...
3) Have this strong feeling that you must have him/her, that he/she can only be yours(this is the worst case scenario).

AHHHHHHHHH,
i'm so freakin' confused right now...
should i even talk about loving someone....
i don't even have the guts to take that most important 1st step: INTERACTION...